It’s Gotta Be the Dreads (Part One)
Your life is like a book of morals with stories and anecdotes to lead you through to a lesson. When you can see the theme for one day, it is absolutely astounding. Wednesday’s topic: Be cool, be fun, be loved.
I get angry and frustrated very easy. But, I can control it. When you’re angry though, sometimes it’s more frustrating to keep it inside. So you let it out and when you do, the whole world can tell. But the shit I get angry over ain’t even worth it. I’ve NEVER had anything terribly wrong happen in my life. Never been in jail, never had anyone close to me die, never been in a coma for 34 years to wake up and find out that I have a son that was produced illegally from my semen while I was out cold. None a dat shit. Donna had to tell me,
I get angry and frustrated very easy. But, I can control it. When you’re angry though, sometimes it’s more frustrating to keep it inside. So you let it out and when you do, the whole world can tell. But the shit I get angry over ain’t even worth it. I’ve NEVER had anything terribly wrong happen in my life. Never been in jail, never had anyone close to me die, never been in a coma for 34 years to wake up and find out that I have a son that was produced illegally from my semen while I was out cold. None a dat shit. Donna had to tell me,
“Dan. Niggas got real problems. You’re mad for no reason.”
She was right. And that’s where that chapter started. That following Wednesday I was thinking about how much of an asshole I was at the Cove (due to the fact that I had to wait in line for an hour). I thought about how angry I was in the truck with that girl on my lap (That’s another story). A BEAUTIFUL AFRICAN PRINCESS WAS ON MY LAP AND I COULD STILL GET ANGRY? I thought about how this one nigga at the club in VA said I addressed him as a peasant because I just kinda blew him off. I thought about how people may end up thinking that I’m snotty when really I’m just a nervously shy, angry little man. When you’re headed for stardom, that’s not a good quality to have.
On temptation island they thought this girl was stuck up because she didn’t participate in any events and she would always be in her room. She said something along the lines of, “I’m a very shy and nervous person. Right now I’m nervous as hell.” But until she said that she didn’t know what to do, but stay quiet. When you stay quiet, and don’t put yourself out there, people have no choice but to wonder what you would be like if you did open up. People have to come up with their own theories if you don’t give them yours. And usually with introverts, it’s all negative. They think you to be weird, snotty, stupid (if you ain’t got shit to say, it must be ‘cause you don’t think), boring, racist (when you live with white people and don’t come out your room, they start to wonder), or a push-over. Hardly, every once in a teal moon, someone says, “He’s quiet because he’s a thinker...”
She was right. And that’s where that chapter started. That following Wednesday I was thinking about how much of an asshole I was at the Cove (due to the fact that I had to wait in line for an hour). I thought about how angry I was in the truck with that girl on my lap (That’s another story). A BEAUTIFUL AFRICAN PRINCESS WAS ON MY LAP AND I COULD STILL GET ANGRY? I thought about how this one nigga at the club in VA said I addressed him as a peasant because I just kinda blew him off. I thought about how people may end up thinking that I’m snotty when really I’m just a nervously shy, angry little man. When you’re headed for stardom, that’s not a good quality to have.
On temptation island they thought this girl was stuck up because she didn’t participate in any events and she would always be in her room. She said something along the lines of, “I’m a very shy and nervous person. Right now I’m nervous as hell.” But until she said that she didn’t know what to do, but stay quiet. When you stay quiet, and don’t put yourself out there, people have no choice but to wonder what you would be like if you did open up. People have to come up with their own theories if you don’t give them yours. And usually with introverts, it’s all negative. They think you to be weird, snotty, stupid (if you ain’t got shit to say, it must be ‘cause you don’t think), boring, racist (when you live with white people and don’t come out your room, they start to wonder), or a push-over. Hardly, every once in a teal moon, someone says, “He’s quiet because he’s a thinker...”
T O B K O N T I N U E D
posted by The Urban Author at 8:49 AM
5 Comments:
I think you should remember to be as genuine to your emotions as you can. Don't get pissed b/c you don't know how to express something else. Feel the way you feel. If you are happy, be happy, sad be sad, ect. Do you, baby! That's all!
Funny that the onlypicture you can post with dreads is a white chick...oh, you introverts!
hey it's okay there are a ton of people in the the world that feel the same way you do. myself included. i am shy and nervous myself. but that is no reason to be angry at anyone. anyone who knows you personally knows that you are a talented artist with a lot to offer the world but you are not sure where to focus your energy because you have so many ideas. so you went home to columbus for inspiration but left those in va beach without even a good bye? what the dealy yo?
I feel you, its like people can't be quiet and think, something has to be wrong. I am very much introverted, especially in a new crowd. I like to peep the scene. I don't talk until I'm comfortable and know the people around me. But yes, I feel you, I'm angry too, but I think I have valid reasons. But you have reasons as well to be angry, you're a black man in America still struggling for equality. You get racially profiled, those are just a few reasons why you should be angry.
WHERE IN THE HELL ARE YOU?
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